What was I made for?

Ideologies change from moment to moment and vary from people's beliefs, but God's Word never changes, it endures forever.

At times, we put our significance to our roles, gender, professions, wealth, treasures, and relationships. Even if we have all the desires of our hearts, the success and fulfillment, we will find ourselves not enough and limited, empty, fallen, and broken. Searching for answers but can't still find and afford them, wondering about our existence- purpose, and meaning. What was I made for as a woman?

Do I need to have a perfect figure to be considered a woman? Do I need to give birth? Do I need to have a man on my side to be complete and to be called significant? Do I need to have a good career or do I need to stay at home, be a good homemaker? But what if those things do not come? What if I am just made for ordinary things? Does it mean I am meaningless and purposeless? What was I made for?

Perhaps you have these questions in your mind when you suddenly look in the mirror then you realize you're a woman already: need to put on make-up to hide some dark spots, wear high heels to be more confident, consume less food to have a perfect figure, and the list goes on. The standards around the space where you stand seem so narrow that you can't breathe; you want to run for a while because you can't see your significance anymore.

And if this day has come and you wake up with deep frustration in life, feeling hanging on a thread, feeling purposeless and meaningless, and feeling lost in the intricate pattern of life. Please choose to wake up each day, choose to stand up, and choose to walk each day. Pour out your questions, listen to the clamor raging inside your heart, and never suppressed what you feel. Allow yourself to trace the lines, connect the dots, and get lost in the maze of life. Just one little step each day. Look above the clouds in the daylight and the starry night when evening comes. Listen to the birds. Dance with the trees, float in the waves. 

Until you realize that the answers won't come from around, from others, and from within. You don't hold the answers; you are limited; you are not enough and that is okay. Look above, put down your emotions and feelings, and put down the expectations you hold for yourself and from the society where you at. Your limitations don't hinder His power to work within you and change your life.

Until it leads you back to the Creator of everything, the One who knows every tiny bit of you, the One who knitted you from your mother's womb and calls you by your name. Everything around speaks for His glory. It is okay not to have all the answers because life is whimsical with so many surprises, a mystery with misery, and a miracle with so much grace. 

When you feel small and insignificant, remember God is too loving not to care. Take a deep breath and look above. Look to the One who sustains every atom in the universe. He sees you. The God who made the heaven and earth knows you very well. He knows the intricate pattern of your soul. The One who created you and designed you is the only one who can define you, give you worth and true purpose. The Lord preserves your existence. He is the keeper of your existence and lover of your soul.

Your worth does not come from outside, it comes from Him. The climactic journey of your life as a woman brings you to a higher ground when you choose to bend your knees, lift your arms, and gaze at the story at the cross. Your worth comes from Him alone. You don't deserve His grace, but because His love covers a multitude of sins; He calls you by your name and His death is saying; you are worth dying for, so you may experience a life full of meaning: a life filled with so much grace, to remind you that in Him, you are precious, significant, beloved, and chosen. These are the promises to the ones who choose to believe in Jesus' name. Thus, you won't find yourself finding your significance from the world because He already did it from the cross. Your worth is found in Christ.

You are clothed in His beauty that will never wilt. You are clothed in His strength that will never fail. You are clothed in His power that will never diminish. You are clothed with Christ himself. Christ wraps you in loving arms of grace. He will never leave you naked or shivering with shame. Garments of Splendor

He clothes you with worth, value, and honor.

Elisabeth Eliot once said, "In order to learn what it means to be a woman we must start with the One who made her."

¹⁴ Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.^[a]

Romans 13:14

Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies.

Proverbs 31:10

So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

Matthew 10:31

Though the mountains be shaken
    and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
    nor my covenant of peace be removed,”
    says the Lord, who has compassion on you

Isaiah 54:10

³⁸ For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,^[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

She is clothed with strength and dignity;
    she can laugh at the days to come.

Proverbs 31:25