Growing up is fun too with unexpected adventures that would make you a better person. Keep seeking and learning from this life. Life is meant to live!
Sometimes, we don't need to understand before we trust Him. He will make a way even in the wilderness.
Life is a test and a trust, and the more God gives you, the more responsible he expects you to be. Character is both developed and revealed by tests, and all of life is a test. - Rick Warren