it takes 10 000 attempts before Thomas Edison made the first light bulb, you’re still in your one hundred drafts; keep writing, editing, revising, and experiencing life even though the world is scary, go out and show up!
At times you don’t need to take like seriously know when it’s time to play the game, don’t wear a suit when you are on the tennis court, you might lose on your first try because you don’t know the rules but you shouldn’t stop, you still win because you show up. Keep showing up!
X. fear of unfamiliarity
A new dream is scary because you start trying new things to work out and the discomfort you feel at the beginning is heartbreaking but liberating, you’re actually growing into the version of you that you always hope to be. Soft but courageous, innocent and wise, hopeful and persistent. It’s breaking the rules that aren’t for you, it’s shredding the map that you don’t want to venture into, and it’s ripping all the expectations of other people about you. Go for it even if it’s unfamiliar and it doesn’t makes sense.
You’re not greater than nor less than other people, stop thinking you are meaningless and merely existing here. Never beat yourself, others will do it for you. Never self-reject ’cause you will experience thousands of nos from others before you receive a hundred yeses. Kick the fear in the face. What will you do if you are ten times bolder? Pass the first draft? Go for an audition? Finish your masters? Pursue your passion?
What if I fail? Darling, those who try never fail ’cause you always win when you show up. Keep in mind, you’re just one in a billion people, the way you exist is already a win but don’t stop merely existing keep living the life that is meant for you. It’s beautiful beloved!
XII. weird feeling
I want to believe those letters were written for me. I want to believe I met a beautiful soul, something that I could just adore because it exists in real life not to chase. I want to believe that the dreamers are finally awake and that somehow our past lives are connected and my eyes are enchanting. I want to believe that every poet is sincere in every word they pour out. Perhaps, it was a game, a research study, a case study to be fulfilled. I never wanted to judge. Does anyone gain something when they played with someone’s emotions? I’m also accountable for this weird feeling, perhaps it’s just my perception. I would make beautiful art again, a beautiful masterpiece! Rhythm, melody, words, questions, and weird feelings until all of these fade!
May you never forget your heart just to prove you conquer her.
When your heart is heavy, go to your happy place and eat your comfort food then suddenly you’ll realize it’s just small things compared to what you’ve been through. Deep the fries into the ice cream and gravy, experiment, sip the soda until you burp so loud, smile at the strangers in front of you while chewing your favorite chicken and lick the gravy then ask for more.
Burped, my stomach is full and my heart is full again!
We are living in a broken world with a lot of broken individuals, thus happiness is always not around us. Life will break you, nobody can protect you from that. People keep hurting one another thus the Lord always reminds us to take heart, to be strong and courageous ’cause that’s the reality here in this world. Heaven is our home, that’s the only happy and perfect place. Imagine, how happy you are when you go to your favorite place and eat all your comfort food and see those happy mascots, it makes your day lighter right?tHow much more seeing Jesus in heaven, how magnificent it would be!
Look at the sky, you can always be hopeful, Jesus overcame the world, so you are!