Pressure, back pains, and fears
Keep coming these days.
I thought this would be a better place,
Where everything runs smoothly.
But as time keeps running,
my heart beats keep thudding too loud.
Feels like I'm hanging on a thread,
GRACE  keeps me going.

Dreams seem so unclear.
Teardrops of confusion  pour out.
Crickets join me as if they understand me.
Even the stars and moon are not with me.
Searching for their lights but couldn't afford it.
I wanted to walk and enjoy the moment of solemnity.
HOPE keeps me breathing.

Growing up allows me to be the person,
that I thought I couldn't be.
It stretches my whole being, 
widen my persepective, and search for more.
The real meaning of this life: my purpose.
Asking God if he could answer my prayers, 
'cause deep down in my heart.
Is a weary heart.
FAITH keeps me believing.

Published by Merrel Ya

A lady who has been pondering her hope into Christ, inhaling His grace, and enjoying the beauty of life. Writing about life, asking God about "kuliglig sa kanyang dibdib."

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