God can provide doorways to dead ends. God can give rebirth to your dying hopes. God knows you very well and God cares for you. His grace is enough and His goodness is always available. He pursues you everyday because His love is reckless, it breaks the power of shame, guilt, fears, anxieties, and doubts. Nothing is impossible to God.
Yesterday night was just precious, having my heart to heart session to God, pouring out my heart and it's all by His grace that He feels so close to me in this season. Last year, when I resigned I felt lost, my identity was on my profession, I thought if I wouldn't work anymore I would be meaningless, if I wouldn't do anything, I'm purposeless. If I had a small pocket, I wouldn't finish my studies. It was full of twists and turns. I was so unsure about my faith and about many things because I was so scared to be left behind and it happened. It was painful, the breaking season was so hard.
I've never realized that God is beyond I imagined. I am a speck in His eyes but He took notice of me and He always does. He never fails to take good care of His children. I found myself when I lose myself and look to Jesus. Our heart is a human factory of idols thus I felt so meaningless because those things became my priority instead of honoring God in every little thing that I do.
He's loving and He' s so forgiving and let me experience again my breakthrough. Our breakthrough is not the success and fulfilment of this world, not the diploma, awards, certificates, vehicles, partner, house- not all those beautiful things we desire. It is knowing that Jesus is always there for you, it's rekindling your love for God, for Jesus, and to desire to walk in the power of the Holy Spirit. And knowing your worth, value, and identity comes to Jesus alone. He loves to bless His faithful children, you are not forgotten. God knows the desires of my heart and I know He's aligning my motives and intentions into His will so it will be beautiful and it won't be painful anymore so I can enjoy His blessings.
Perhaps, you are experiencing it right now. I don't know your season but I am grateful because you guys are almost 12 000 Tiktok readers there. I hope you always find Jesus. Those hard season is a preparation so you will continue to grow in faith, you will rely more in Jesus and not to yourself because when God works it will be perfect because He is a perfect God.
God provided for my daily bread. God gave rebirth to my dying hopes. God loved me even when I felt so unlovable. God valued me even I felt I'm purposeless- and even today He always does because that who He is. During the tough season, God never leaves me. And now I realized that He has different purpose so I will continue seeking His ways more than my ways. The key is to love His Word, read the Bible and all the promises of God are just there. It has the power to break all the idols inside your heart.
And if you are faithless now God remains faithful. Surely, you will surpass it because His grace will carry when you don't have the strength to keep going.
God can do immeasurably things more than we ask or imagine according to His power that is at work within us.
Ephesians 3:20
Seek Ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added to you.
Matthew 6:22
All we know that in all thing God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28
