An Open Letter To My Present Self

Beloved,

I am glad you are content, grateful, and at peace now. I am so proud of you, you're kinder to yourself. I know this transition is the hardest, it's disheartening and discomforting but look at you, enjoying the present moments, leaving the past behind, and striving for the future.

I am delighted with how you perceive your life now more than yesterday. I am happy with how you tuck up your courage even if you don't know what's next. The way you sip your coffee at night with gladness and joy. I'm delighted you smile at strangers, strike up a conversation, and allow yourself to meet new people. Expressing yourself freely, asking hard questions, crying and being vulnerable when you're in pain, accepting rebukes and rejections, doing things that scare you, asking for help when you're in need, venturing into new horizons, seeing the beauty in each person while practicing discernment at the same time, and accepting the uncertainties and madness in life.

I am happy because you allow yourself to be messy at times, to be unsure, to be different, to be lost, and to survive. I am glad you learn to let go of those things and the people that withhold your peace. You are now learning that not all people are meant to be with you all the time, all have a specific purpose and once they served their purpose, it's okay to let them go.

Pursue what ignites your soul and seek the people that aspire you to become a better version of yourself. Venture into the path that you're so afraid to take. I hope you take chances in love and pour out your heart's desires. Learn to pause and wait when it's not yet the right time; beautiful things take time.

Always seek wisdom more than jewels and silver. Always find purpose and meaning in the works of your hands. And always remember you are worthy of love. I hope you see yourself as God sees you and may you find validation and value in Him alone.

I pray that you continue living in faith and not by sight.

No matter how difficult the day may be, learn to embrace it. Clear your mind of all bitterness, hatred, assumptions, and frustrations because each day is fleeting. Pursue your purpose for His glory.

Take heart!

By His grace alone.



Your 25-year-old self




Published by Merrel Ya

A lady who has been pondering her hope into Christ, inhaling His grace, and enjoying the beauty of life. Writing about life, asking God about "kuliglig sa kanyang dibdib."

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