i’m nothing but a kid

i thought i needed to do something to earn Your love
i thought i needed to be the best girl in town
i thought i needed to work hard to please You
i thought i needed to do all the works so You will bless me
but when i didn't have anything to offer, 
only my empty hands and empty heart
when i was wandering all alone in the wilderness
i realized again that's how You love me since then
i couldn't earn it,  i couldn't fathom this love
i'm nothing but a selfish kid at your feet

how many times i disappoint You?
but You always appoint me to do great things
how many times i became so ungrateful?
but You always bless me and give me another day
how many times i chose my own way?
but You always give me favors and provisions
i'm nothing but a selfish kid at your feet

i see YOUR goodness since then,
Your Word guides every step I take
thank You Father God, for loving me
thank You for giving me the chance to live,
to breathe, to serve, to hope, and to love
thank you for shutting all the noise and lies from this world

thank You for all the tests of life
the beauty of life, the joy and happiness
the failures and success,
the unanswered prayers and
the miracles in each day

You're a Holy God, a loving and forgiving Father
the world is in a constant change
but You never changes
You're the beginning and forever
thank You for the love that was crucified
for my sins, doubts, insecurities, and unbelief
thank You for loving the lil' kid inside me

Published by Merrel Ya

A lady who has been pondering her hope into Christ, inhaling His grace, and enjoying the beauty of life. Writing about life, asking God about "kuliglig sa kanyang dibdib."

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