after the wilderness

The seasons have changed and I'm aware, passion is not enough. Now that I know my weakness more Oh how I need your never dying love, Oh how I need your never dying love.

Never Dying Love, Jon Thurlow

Wait and keep your spirit sweet.

How beautiful wilderness is, the hidden season leads me closer to the Lover of my soul. I’ve seen more of Him in spite of my weaknesses, I’ve seen the broken parts of me, revelations from Him, truth that liberates. It’s so heartbreaking, the fury furnace in the wilderness, and I am becoming more aware that on my own strength, I couldn’t even do it, I need more of His love, His never dying love.

The seasons have changed and I’m aware, that passion is not enough. Now that I know my weaknesses more, knowing that I am inadequate and incapable on my own, I want to lean on Him more, to draw closer to Him even more. It’s all about Him, I need to lean not on my own understanding but on my beloved One. His love is so sweet, sweeter than honey, deeper than the ocean, wider than the universe, and stronger than multitudes of sin. Something only heaven can give.

God is worthy to be waited on, whether or not we hear anything, whether or not we see anything, whether or not our dreams are fulfilled. When graced with hidden years, wait because He is worthy, keep the waters of your spirit sweet, be still, and grow.

After the wilderness is done, you’ll realize without Him, you are nothing, just like Paul's faithful words, “For me to live is Christ and to die is gain.”


Paul’s Chains Advance the Gospel

12 Now I want you to know, brothers and sisters,[b] that what has happened to me has actually served to advance the gospel. 13 As a result, it has become clear throughout the whole palace guard[c] and to everyone else that I am in chains for Christ. 14 And because of my chains, most of the brothers and sisters have become confident in the Lord and dare all the more to proclaim the gospel without fear.

15 It is true that some preach Christ out of envy and rivalry, but others out of goodwill. 16 The latter do so out of love, knowing that I am put here for the defense of the gospel. 17 The former preach Christ out of selfish ambition, not sincerely, supposing that they can stir up trouble for me while I am in chains. 18 But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice.

Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, 19 for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance.[d] 20 I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. 21 For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22 If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23 I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24 but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25 Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26 so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.

Philippians 1:12-26

Published by Merrel Ya

A lady who has been pondering her hope into Christ, inhaling His grace, and enjoying the beauty of life. Writing about life, asking God about "kuliglig sa kanyang dibdib."

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