What is the measure of my days?

I love quiet walks. I find myself so connected to Him whenever I walk alone in a quiet street. I used to protect myself from others. I used to overanalyze other people's opinions about me. But I realized I'm just a passerby in this world; I'm just a breathe and I'm nobody. When I understand that life is fleeting, my life becomes more liberating. I started seeking the truth then I realized I don't know anything. I always needed to search for His Word like a precious jewel.

This line hit me from Crazy Love I am still dumb enough to forget that life is all about God and not about me at all. Francis Chan said that the point of our lives is to point to Him. Whatever we're doing God wants to be glorified because this whole thing is His. It is His movie, His world, His gift.

We are not supposed to live a guarded, safe, and controlled life. God creates everything here and He is in control. He works mightily. He deeply cares for His children. He loves us.

We have only our two-fifths-of-a-second-long scene to live. Tomorrow is never a promise, the present moment is indeed a gift. I used to have detailed plans of what should be my life in the future and I realized it was futile. It's just the same as everyone else. It's all about me.

I thought I always needed more time to forgive, love, and serve. And I asked myself, why I can't do it now? Why do I always hesitate to say sorry first, to love first, and to forgive first? Why do I always wait for a perfect time when I can do it now?

David wrote in Psalm 39:4-5

O Lord, make me know my end and what is the measure of my days; let me know how fleeting I am!
Behold, you have made my days a few head breadths, and my lifetime is as nothing before you. Surely all mankind stands as mere breadth!

Let me know how fleeting I am.


Published by Merrel Ya

A lady who has been pondering her hope into Christ, inhaling His grace, and enjoying the beauty of life. Writing about life, asking God about "kuliglig sa kanyang dibdib."

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