UNSURE

I started to turn back all the pages of my life. Many plots had twist, conflicts that are still unsolved, characters that changed,  and theme that aren’t digested.

I am now in the middle of dark and light. I don’t know if I’ll jump or fly.I’m asking if I’ll stay or run? I don’t know if I’m lost or found? I’m in between of sorrow and joy, and I hate this feeling.

I’m confused on this story. I am unsure on these plots, characters, conflicts and themes. My plans and dreams scattered into tiny pieces.I didn’t know  whether I’m in the right track.  I couldn’t feel the pain and the pleasure.

My heart is numb.

Let me know Your desires and plans.

Heal this soul.

Bring back when I was young.

When I was running and crying into Your arms.

Bring back when I was young.

When I was inhaling Your grace .

Bring back when I was young.

When  my desires are Your desires.

Bring back when I was young

When I was sure on Your plans for me.

Bring back when I was young

When I was kneeling everything to You.

Please take me back,

on the story that You wrote.

Please take me back

on the characters that You gave.

Please take me back

on the conflicts that You resolved.

Please take me back

on the promises that You offered.

Please take me back

in the beginning of my story with You .


Published by Merrel Ya

A lady who has been pondering her hope into Christ, inhaling His grace, and enjoying the beauty of life. Writing about life, asking God about “kuliglig sa kanyang dibdib.”

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