To My First One

It’s three in the morning, and I only hear the sound of the crickets and the snores filling the house. I wanted to hear your voice in the middle of the dawn. I keep on seeking until I found You.

I was a destitute lady in the back row, nothing is special about me. I have many weaknesses and insecurities in my body. I couldn’t even walk properly, I always bow down my head while walking on the road, because I’m afraid of their eyes, it seems poisonous. I failed thousands of times. I kept talking about the clouds and stars above when no one tries to listen to me. My pen is also my best buddy because it lets me release all those heartaches that keep aching inside. Those bombs are inside my heart.

Despite these things, You show You’re grace, You shower me with Your love and embrace all these iniquities that I have. You keep on holding my hand even sometimes I get lost. You tell me that I’m your princess and You’ve many wonderful plans for me.

And these past few days, something is bothering me. Let me know Your will……………………..


Published by Merrel Ya

A lady who has been pondering her hope into Christ, inhaling His grace, and enjoying the beauty of life. Writing about life, asking God about “kuliglig sa kanyang dibdib.”

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